A rare romantic dream that I actually remember…
*chuckles* I guess I could blame the fanfiction my friend sent me.
Don’t read if you don’t like mushy stories.
My parents and I don’t have the best relationship. It’s weird. To me, it’s kind of minimal, very minimal
at least in my head if not for the blood and the fact I still live under their roof. It may be the blood, so I still love them despite all the arguments and fights and disagreements.
I have really shallow tear ducts…
A broken plate that’s been broken and glued together far too many times; 1 step forward and 2 steps back.
I really hate liars…that goes with out saying, and yet, cruel irony would have it, I deal with one every day.
Almost every time I feel like the relationship between my sister and I gets stronger, I find the truth behind a lie she’s told and everything goes out the window…again. We’ve always bickered and fought as kids so it’s never been a lovey-dovey relationship like those in movies…but it has mellowed since then, but I still can’t bring my self to trust her in any way; she’s always the one behind my missing cash and “borrowing” my clothes and many other “pettier” crimes…
I don’t really know what to do and heaven knows confronting her is out of the option…
I just don’t know…
I hate liars and she makes me one more and more often. She lets me know she will be openly disobeying any rules about NOT meeting a boy in the dead of night
and to make things worse, it’s her ex whom I’m not completely unconvinced she still “loves” (or whatever she believes it to be) him.
It seems she’s completely forgotten about the time she was caught almost two years ago; how un-innocent the situation was, how furious our dad was, how much trouble she was in, how unnecessary and how easily avoidable the situation was
apparently not that she cared.
I’ve been an older sister for about 18 years and for 18 years
intermittently, I’ve wish I was an only child. We argued, we fought, scratched, and pulled hair. She’s lied, cheated, and stolen from me. And yet, despite all this, I still love her because she’s family and you really can’t choose family. But many, MANY times she tests this love and to be honest, I’m getting so tired of this. As her older sister, I’ll almost always instinctively lie to protect her but I HATE it, the guilt…everything.
I wished an infinite amount of times that she didn’t involve me! Ignorance IS bliss in situations like these. She generally hates sharing with me too but of course, with things she can get in trouble for, I’m the first she tells.
She’s an effin black hole!
I need sleep…
Not much adventuring this week…
It’s registration week and searching for classes that fit was nothing short of hell especially since all the good classes were either taken by upperclassmen or reserved for special courses. (#`Д´)
Meanwhile, my mum’s persistence in my major/career doesn’t exactly scream “motivation”….
But I have decided to make some use of my time, and search up which major I want to be in since pharm is not a major…
why can’t pharm be a major?
Consider that I SUCK at biology, but love Chem and Math (asian me /shot) I think Chem will probably be my major…I don’t really have to declare till 60 credits but according to the pre-pharm track, I’m hopelessly behind (￣д￣;)
I made me a wall so instead of looking and switching between 20 windows on the computer, I can look at everything at once. Here is my wall of course for my major, classes I need to take for pharm at my school, and the yellow stickies are the courses I need to take to get into other pharm schools in my area.
As for the pink stickies, my cousin thought it would be funny to add some other courses which include the above and spelling and dog washing and others, lol (≧▽≦)
It finally came! The book I ordered from Amazon for my Orgo 2 class is here! Not a bad timing either seeing how when I sat in my friend’s lecture, I thought I was studying alien hieroglyphics ∑(O_O；)
The other thing that came in the mail was my instax mini! I finally have my hands on a instant camera; I’ve been pining for one for so long! Sadly, I can’t go trigger happy since the film is fairly expensive. lol, film for this thing will prolly now have a permanent place on my Christmas and birthday wish list XD.