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4 weeks ago, it was just another yearly checkup…or at least that is what I thought until I was told to get an ultrasound. 
3 weeks ago, I did.
2 weeks ago, I was sent this letter…I have a 21 cm cystic mass in my lower abdomen and a splenic mass. I was also told to get an MRI.
1 week ago, I did. 
A few days ago, the MRI results came back confirming the ultrasound.
I will see a specialist on Friday.
From then till now, I’m beyond scared; I don’t want surgery, I don’t want to drop my semester, I don’t want a lot of things but it’s not up to what I want or not want…I don’t a choice in the matter so I’ll just keep smiling :)
  • 4 weeks ago, it was just another yearly checkup…or at least that is what I thought until I was told to get an ultrasound. 
  • 3 weeks ago, I did.
  • 2 weeks ago, I was sent this letter…I have a 21 cm cystic mass in my lower abdomen and a splenic mass. I was also told to get an MRI.
  • 1 week ago, I did. 
  • A few days ago, the MRI results came back confirming the ultrasound.
  • I will see a specialist on Friday.

From then till now, I’m beyond scared; I don’t want surgery, I don’t want to drop my semester, I don’t want a lot of things but it’s not up to what I want or not want…I don’t a choice in the matter so I’ll just keep smiling :)

Happy Turkey Day~
and if you are vegetarian/vegan/etc, Happy Tofurkey Day
:)

Happy Turkey Day~

  • and if you are vegetarian/vegan/etc, Happy Tofurkey Day

:)

01.20.11 Friday
Because of my again cancelled doctor’s appointment, I went for some food therapy. I went to a place called Le Pain Quotidien. This is just some pictures of the food I snapped with my iPhone~
From top to bottom:
My pot of coffee: lol, my cup was a bowl!
Broccoli Soup: my aunt liked it but YUCK! it was like bland puree broccoli :(
Prosciutto & Mozzarella di Bufala with sun-dried tomatoes and basil pesto
Warm Butternut Squash with Ricotta and Pine nuts
Pistachio Tart
Mixed Berry Tart: yum P:
And because I found out (through Tumblr) that Picnik is shutting down, I went and had a little fun with the premium features with today’s foods ;)

And if you are curious about the pocky:
My chocolate pocky held some pretty deep wisdom~
My vanilla one had a cute typo for the whale >u<
 

01.20.11 Friday

Because of my again cancelled doctor’s appointment, I went for some food therapy. I went to a place called Le Pain Quotidien. This is just some pictures of the food I snapped with my iPhone~

From top to bottom:

  • My pot of coffee: lol, my cup was a bowl!
  • Broccoli Soup: my aunt liked it but YUCK! it was like bland puree broccoli :(
  • Prosciutto & Mozzarella di Bufala with sun-dried tomatoes and basil pesto
  • Warm Butternut Squash with Ricotta and Pine nuts
  • Pistachio Tart
  • Mixed Berry Tart: yum P:

And because I found out (through Tumblr) that Picnik is shutting down, I went and had a little fun with the premium features with today’s foods ;)

And if you are curious about the pocky:

  • My chocolate pocky held some pretty deep wisdom~
  • My vanilla one had a cute typo for the whale >u<

 

My surgery is tomorrow at 0600AM. 
See you when I wake up.
P.s. because my .gifs is too large, click here and here for original pictures~

My surgery is tomorrow at 0600AM. 

See you when I wake up.

P.s. because my .gifs is too large, click here and here for original pictures~

02.20.12 Monday
It was the first time I had set foot in the outside worlds since I was discharged from the hospital; it felt so good. It&#8217;s been almost two weeks since my surgery and ever since I came home, I slept a lot, was in pain most of the time, and (as oddly as it sounds) itchy the rest of the time. (I was told that means it&#8217;s healing but the need to itch was maddening.) The ibuprofen and other drugs helped with the pain THANK GOD FOR DRUGS; DRUGS ARE GOOD ._. b but the doctor gave me nothing for skin irritation. *sigh* but at least the worst is almost over. Other then when I sneeze, vomit, hiccup, or laugh, the pain is minimal and the irritation has passed. *knocks on wood* 
As for the actual day out, I thought I was ready but I nearly passed out. I looked like one of those little old ladies you want to help cross the busy street; I was hunched over with one had on my tummy. It was the oddest thing going through XXI (FMMall) with my sister; I took ten steps then hurried to the nearest display table to sit down for five minutes then get up and go to the thing that catches my eye then I&#8217;ll look for a different place to sit and continue the process. Luckily no one yelled at me for sitting on the tables *chuckles*.
It&#8217;s 12:31am and about time for me to rest for the rest of the week for this weekend&#8217;s adventures. Hopefully, I&#8217;ll fall asleep soon&#8230;my sleep schedule is so messed up; I&#8217;ve been sleeping at 2/3/4am again and waking up at noon-ish; it hasn&#8217;t been this bad since my visits to Hong Kong.
and on another note:&#8230;oh gawd, how awkward have I become with words.

02.20.12 Monday

It was the first time I had set foot in the outside worlds since I was discharged from the hospital; it felt so good. It’s been almost two weeks since my surgery and ever since I came home, I slept a lot, was in pain most of the time, and (as oddly as it sounds) itchy the rest of the time. (I was told that means it’s healing but the need to itch was maddening.) The ibuprofen and other drugs helped with the pain THANK GOD FOR DRUGS; DRUGS ARE GOOD ._. b but the doctor gave me nothing for skin irritation. *sigh* but at least the worst is almost over. Other then when I sneeze, vomit, hiccup, or laugh, the pain is minimal and the irritation has passed. *knocks on wood* 

As for the actual day out, I thought I was ready but I nearly passed out. I looked like one of those little old ladies you want to help cross the busy street; I was hunched over with one had on my tummy. It was the oddest thing going through XXI (FMMall) with my sister; I took ten steps then hurried to the nearest display table to sit down for five minutes then get up and go to the thing that catches my eye then I’ll look for a different place to sit and continue the process. Luckily no one yelled at me for sitting on the tables *chuckles*.

It’s 12:31am and about time for me to rest for the rest of the week for this weekend’s adventures. Hopefully, I’ll fall asleep soon…my sleep schedule is so messed up; I’ve been sleeping at 2/3/4am again and waking up at noon-ish; it hasn’t been this bad since my visits to Hong Kong.

and on another note:…oh gawd, how awkward have I become with words.

DreamJournal #1

02212012 

A rare romantic dream that I actually remember…

*chuckles* I guess I could blame the fanfiction my friend sent me.

Don’t read if you don’t like mushy stories.

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Adventure Snapshots

02.22

I went to Cherry Hill Mall today. To be honest, it was painful walking around…I practically fell into every chair I could find.

Food always makes it better though :)

Yanagi <3

This was a the view above me when I was catching my breath in one of the comfiest sofa chairs ever. The sky was the prettiest blue and the clouds looked like cotton candy. I wonder if the bird was visible…

Adventure Snapshots

02.26

Since I’ve been forever cooped up in my house, I look forward to every time I get to leave! I didn’t do anything terribly exciting…just a quick trip to my cousin’s for lunch and to visit Olive, a corgi. LOL, sorry! All the shots are of food because food is my bane ever since I got home from the hospital; my mom has a mile long list of foods I can’t eat and to be honest, it’s torture :(

Food from my favorite Italian Restaurant (located on South Street), Pietro’s!

It was the first time I ate a strawberry with that long a stem!
Oh, that&#8217;s Olive, a corgi~

It was the first time I ate a strawberry with that long a stem!

Oh, that’s Olive, a corgi~

03012012 Tears

My parents and I don’t have the best relationship. It’s weird. To me, it’s kind of minimal, very minimal at least in my head if not for the blood and the fact I still live under their roof. It may be the blood, so I still love them despite all the arguments and fights and disagreements. 

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03.12 Realizations and Ramblings

I have really shallow tear ducts…

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04.02 Realizations and Ramblings

A broken plate that’s been broken and glued together far too many times; 1 step forward and 2 steps back.

I really hate liars…that goes with out saying, and yet, cruel irony would have it, I deal with one every day.

Almost every time I feel like the relationship between my sister and I gets stronger, I find the truth behind a lie she’s told and everything goes out the window…again. We’ve always bickered and fought as kids so it’s never been a lovey-dovey relationship like those in movies…but it has mellowed since then, but I still can’t bring my self to trust her in any way; she’s always the one behind my missing cash and “borrowing” my clothes and many other “pettier” crimes…

I don’t really know what to do and heaven knows confronting her is out of the option…

*sigh*

I just don’t know…

04.04 Realizations and Ramblings

I’m so…frustrated!

I hate liars and she makes me one more and more often. She lets me know she will be openly disobeying any rules about NOT meeting a boy in the dead of night and to make things worse, it’s her ex whom I’m not completely unconvinced she still “loves” (or whatever she believes it to be) him.

It seems she’s completely forgotten about the time she was caught almost two years ago; how un-innocent the situation was, how furious our dad was, how much trouble she was in, how unnecessary and how easily avoidable the situation was apparently not that she cared.

I’ve been an older sister for about 18 years and for 18 years intermittently, I’ve wish I was an only child. We argued, we fought, scratched, and pulled hair. She’s lied, cheated, and stolen from me. And yet, despite all this, I still love her because she’s family and you really can’t choose family. But many, MANY times she tests this love and to be honest, I’m getting so tired of this. As her older sister, I’ll almost always instinctively lie to protect her but I HATE it, the guilt…everything.

I wished an infinite amount of times that she didn’t involve me! Ignorance IS bliss in situations like these. She generally hates sharing with me too but of course, with things she can get in trouble for, I’m the first she tells.

She’s an effin black hole!

I need sleep…

Adventure Snapshots

04.13

Not much adventuring this week…

It’s registration week and searching for classes that fit was nothing short of hell especially since all the good classes were either taken by upperclassmen or reserved for special courses. (#`Д´)

Meanwhile, my mum’s persistence in my major/career doesn’t exactly scream “motivation”….

But I have decided to make some use of my time, and search up which major I want to be in since pharm is not a major…why can’t pharm be a major?

Consider that I SUCK at biology, but love Chem and Math (asian me /shot) I think Chem will probably be my major…I don’t really have to declare till 60 credits but according to the pre-pharm track, I’m hopelessly behind ( ̄д ̄;)

I made me a wall so instead of looking and switching between 20 windows on the computer, I can look at everything at once. Here is my wall of course for my major, classes I need to take for pharm at my school, and the yellow stickies are the courses I need to take to get into other pharm schools in my area.

As for the pink stickies, my cousin thought it would be funny to add some other courses which include the above and spelling and dog washing and others, lol (≧▽≦)

It finally came! The book I ordered from Amazon for my Orgo 2 class is here! Not a bad timing either seeing how when I sat in my friend’s lecture, I thought I was studying alien hieroglyphics ∑(O_O;) 

The other thing that came in the mail was my instax mini! I finally have my hands on a instant camera; I’ve been pining for one for so long! Sadly, I can’t go trigger happy since the film is fairly expensive. lol, film for this thing will prolly now have a permanent place on my Christmas and birthday wish list XD.

Adventure Snapshots

04.19

I got a letter from a friend in cali! I love snail mail and hearing from people <3 Naturally, I instantly started writing a letter back and mailed it the next day, lol.

Whenever I paint my nails like this, there are times I catch myself just staring at them/the crackling effect.

Tiramisu cake pop from Starbucks~

The oddest fortune ever…but it made me laugh X3

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